Ugh. I have so much to post about but zero energy. Here’s a broad overview:
The business hasn’t taken off as we had hoped so J has started job hunting. In hindsight we were naive and foolish to think that he could work full time on this business while expecting baby no2 and living so close to family. There was always something for him to help with or some obligation thing to sort out. Before we knew it five months flew by and still no income from the website. Not an ideal situation. So now the job hunt is on and we will be moving provinces again. I don’t mind the move but I’m not too keen on where we are going. I feel the weight of family quite heavily ever since we stayed in CT without those strings attached. But anyway, it will be awesome to not be eating into our savings anymore. This has been an expensive experience but such a memorable one.
She’s such a dear. Sleeps most of the time. In the past week though she has been spitting up her milk so often. We are getting a bit concerned. I have given up dairy and processed food from today to see if that helps.
I’m still breastfeeding and I don’t love it for all of the reasons I didn’t love it the last time. But I’m trying to stick it out this time around. If I can get to one month I can get to two and so on. My goal is to stop at 6months or her first tooth, whichever comes first.
I couldn’t ask for more. She loves her baby sister and even when she gets jealous she doesn’t direct any of those negative feelings towards the baby. I feel like A has grown up practically overnight and she is full of stories. I try not to scold her too much but there are times when she acts out and I have to nip it in the bud. I feel terrible after but I know it’s for the best in the long run.
There’s so much more I want to write about but I am feeling so overwhelmed at the moment that I’m crying just thinking about writing it all down. So I’m going to save it for another time and try to get some sleep.